Wow. What a weird time to be in London.
In the past few days, responses to the incoming Covid-19 have amped up significantly… we went from having a couple of cases and being told to wash our hands… to all face-to-face Uni courses being cancelled, toilet roll being bought out at stores, and borders closing.
On Wednesday we were at low risk, by Friday we were listed as a high risk country with thousands of confirmed cases. Two roommates have rushed back off to China, a girl in my cohort is already back in Greece and honestly, every time somebody coughs in a room, all heads turn and glare. On the tube Thursday, there was even an older man with a gas mask on…
This whole situation has gotten so hectic. After a trip to the Ministry of Defense this Thursday, I came home from the tubes and trains, picked up more non-perishables from the limited grocery store selections and scrubbed my skin red in the shower. I decided it would be best to self isolate for now. As a younger person, I probably won’t be infected, and if I do get it, it probably won’t be awful. Word on the street in the Ministry was that in fact, most people will get a mild case, and that most activities will continue as scheduled – hour by hour updates since then have shown the activity numbers to be waning.
It feels like a mess. A mess no amount of toilet roll can fix. Friends are having their wedding cancelled, I’m skyping my professors, and nearly all interpersonal communication has gone virtual. Compounded with the fact that my loved ones are in every corner of the world and the time-crunch of the impending sickness- it’s honestly scary. And stressful. And lonely. I’m going through anxiety one moment, calm another, and depression the next, and the thing keeping me sane is communicating with people I care about.
I’m now debating whether or not I want to head home. I’m not the only one debating this and my cohort group chat is very active with peoples changing thoughts. People keep asking me “what do you want to do?” and for me I actually have no gut feeling on the subject. I really wish there was someone who told me what I need to do, but I think I’m hoping for instructions that will never come.
For now, I’ll sit and wait, keep checking in with loved ones, and just see what happens.