It sounds simple. You press the “I accept” button and you’re admitted. Right? Well, for me, that acceptance button comes with tuition, fees, room & board, a giant pile of costly books, a move across the pond and plenty of goodbye’s.. so pressing that button can be a much tougher process than one might expect.
Until last month, I wasn’t ready.
It had been over a year since I had applied to the best graduate schools for Bioarchaeology and Forensic Anthropology, and two months later I had received a wonderful amount of options to choose from. I had even picked my favorite! Yet, things were holding me back…
Then, only a couple of weeks ago, something changed in me and I felt undoubtedly, like it was the right move. How I went suddenly from so much doubt and unhappiness to being completely sure, I’ll never truly know, but I do have a bit of an idea on how that sureness grew.
First off, I was really missing school and found myself starting to study on my own at home – this seemed like a sign. Secondly, I went out in the field and found myself not only utilizing my degree, but being good at it and having others trust me.
Back when I was in the thick of deciding what to do about graduate school in February of last year, someone close to me had disregarded my opinion because I wasn’t “a Harvard professor”. And I took that to heart. I didn’t think people would trust me, no matter what degree I got. It’s silly isn’t it, how one comment can stick with you like that? It made me question my future and helped me doubt myself.
I think that my self doubt overshadowed the encouragement I may have had, and now that I’ve surrounded myself with the best archaeological coworkers and an incredibly supportive home life, I feel capable to trust myself in my career…which honestly is huge when your job is to identify the human remains of living peoples ancestors.
I’m so thrilled to start planning my move, to apply for housing options and to check books off my preparatory reading list in the coming year. I’m excited to try new food and go to theatre shows and make friends from all across the globe. So… I guess I can finally say…
I’m officially attending the University College London for a MSc. Bioarchaeology and Forensic Anthropology starting September 2019.
Stay tuned 👩🏼🎓